Topper's Travels

Topper Kain's blog. Topper Kain is a world-famous kazoo player and traditional norwegian food chef. He wants you to use the comments.

Monday, August 23, 2004

I'm a bad poster. A bad bad poster.

I'm in Missouri after visiting family is Wisconson. My grandparents' (Dad's side) 50th aniversery was Saturday. Yes, it is true, you can be married for 50 years. They are awesome people like that. My dad made a really cool speech summing up what had happened in 50 years of the world and of their marriage ("A love that was not talked much about, just done" was his best line), Alex made a speech RE their old world values and elegance, and I closed with a speech about their constantcy and consistence, ("no matter what else happened they saw their marriage through"). Actually Andrew closed with "Let's Eat!", but that is a minor detail.

Oh yeah, there was an open bar. That was really cool.

Turns out though there isn't much to do in Wisconson besides eat, sleep, and talk though. We did go to the "Irish Fest" and saw an awesome celtic rock band, whose name I cannot pronounce. Also had good corned beef.

Missouri is cool too. Saw the arch (which is AMAZING) and my old home and some of our old friends. All very cool.

Okay. I'm tired of blogging.

.: posted by Topper 10:28 PM

Friday, August 06, 2004

I just realized what a large part of my problem with this decision is, especially in relationship to football: There is a very fundamental part of me for which it is important to work nobly against all odds to greatness. Making it to greatness is a part, but the important part is the working and striving and the earnest attempt to make it there. To this part things like medals, or starting positions, or where your degree is from are very important and meaningful, because they represent the effort and an attempt at greatness.

There is another, not as fundamental but still important, part of me that is fine with all that, but really doesn't like a lot of the activities that entails. This part of me says whhhhhhhooooooo cares if you played on the starting football team in college, or where your degree is from. What only matters are tangible results.

Part A is responsible for me playing football and going to Mudd in the first place. Part B is telling me to do something else.

Oh yeah, and Sam you are gay gay gayier ya fuckin faerie.

.: posted by Topper 12:17 AM

Thursday, August 05, 2004

Warning- I'm afraid I'm about to sound like a total jackass.
I've been having trouble deciding what to do with the next 2 years of my life. This is normally not a problem for college students, you eithier push on through school or go work, but I have the unfortunate blessing of an alternative oppurtunity. I have the potential to take a semester off and then take an extra semester to graduate. While this sounds like a lot of fun, I can't shake the feeling that 1.) I'm being totally worthless by taking a semester off, 2.) that I'll never want to go back to school (or at least Mudd) and 3.) I'll never be able to be on the starting football team. On top of this I can't decide if I want to play ball again anyways. I don't see how I could turn down the oppurtunity to be a starting player in college, but that is by no means a sure thing (esp. because right now I haven't lifted anywhere near what I should have) and I don't think I could stand being sidelined by a freshman. On top of all of this I feel like a total putz because THESE ARE THE BIGGEST PROBLEMS IN MY LIFE. I've spent a ton of time worrying about these desicions, and the fact is that I'm presented with many "good" options. Pretty much the only thing I lose by picking any one of these is the other options, and for some reason this is a harder desicion for me than any other I have had.

Any comments?

.: posted by Topper 11:55 PM

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